Healing my heart always starts with a blank canvas, the colors I feel inside of me, and lots of emotions that pour out. Painting has always been away I can express myself. I haven't always been able to express in a way people understand. I heal through painting out what I am feeling inside.
Some of the best pieces of work I have ever created come from the deepest places of emotion inside of me. Without those places, I cannot feel and I cannot paint. Instead, I shut down. I become cold and I allow no one in. Painting keeps me alive. It keeps me dealing in away that’s healing. It keeps me feeling. It keeps me, being who I am.
I may not handle or deal with situations by visiting a therapist or talking it out with family or friends, but I deal through my art and through praying, and sometimes even meditation. Socially, I have always had a hard time expressing my feelings and sharing what bothers me to others. It’s not because I fear talking about my experiences or because I don’t want to share my experiences to help others. It’s just, every time I have ever opened my mouth and shared my tragedies with others, it caused me more pain and grief, others to feel bad and I refuse to spread negative energy in a world that has enough of it already.
So, the way I release the feelings inside of me that wants out is by quietly praying and painting. As I pray out every bit of hurt inside me, I pick up a paintbrush and paint. I keep painting to help release all those not so good feelings inside of me out. By the time I am done, I’ve releases every bit of hurt inside me and end up with this beautiful masterpiece that shows the colors I'd rather have the world see.
Not many want to hear a sad story, but there are many that want to see the beauty that comes from it. I rather share beauty than the destruction of my storms. For me, painting and praying heals, and my paintings bring joy to others. And bringing joy to others is the greatest gift anyone could give.
I never regretted any of the storms that have showered pain upon my life. I’ve embraced them and allowed them to make me, me. I’ve used those storms to create rainbows, which now hang on peoples walls to help bring some colorful happiness into their lives. Spreading happiness is what life should truly be about.
Some of the best pieces of work I have ever created come from the deepest places of emotion inside of me. Without those places, I cannot feel and I cannot paint. Instead, I shut down. I become cold and I allow no one in. Painting keeps me alive. It keeps me dealing in away that’s healing. It keeps me feeling. It keeps me, being who I am.
I may not handle or deal with situations by visiting a therapist or talking it out with family or friends, but I deal through my art and through praying, and sometimes even meditation. Socially, I have always had a hard time expressing my feelings and sharing what bothers me to others. It’s not because I fear talking about my experiences or because I don’t want to share my experiences to help others. It’s just, every time I have ever opened my mouth and shared my tragedies with others, it caused me more pain and grief, others to feel bad and I refuse to spread negative energy in a world that has enough of it already.
So, the way I release the feelings inside of me that wants out is by quietly praying and painting. As I pray out every bit of hurt inside me, I pick up a paintbrush and paint. I keep painting to help release all those not so good feelings inside of me out. By the time I am done, I’ve releases every bit of hurt inside me and end up with this beautiful masterpiece that shows the colors I'd rather have the world see.
Not many want to hear a sad story, but there are many that want to see the beauty that comes from it. I rather share beauty than the destruction of my storms. For me, painting and praying heals, and my paintings bring joy to others. And bringing joy to others is the greatest gift anyone could give.
I never regretted any of the storms that have showered pain upon my life. I’ve embraced them and allowed them to make me, me. I’ve used those storms to create rainbows, which now hang on peoples walls to help bring some colorful happiness into their lives. Spreading happiness is what life should truly be about.